Sunday, April 11, 2010

Last Night 04/11/2010

Brief history of the name of the blog and who I am.

My name is Andrew Clem. I have been and accomplished many things. I have been a carpenter, a factory worker, a father, a Marine for 20 years and now I am studying to become a teacher. I was married for 25 years and I have 5 great children. I have recently removed myself fom my marriage. I removed myself because, if I had continued in that relationship I would have not been the father, my children knew and loved. My wife (Ann) and I had grown apart. She couldn't give me the passion I needed to survive. She was and is incapable of understanding me. To those who feel the need to express, "Oh, you will go back". All I can say is that 25 years to another person is everyday. In a happy relationship the couple are together and live and breath for each other. My marriage had some of that, but I filled in a lot of it myself.

A brief glimpse into an, "I need passion" moment, I am crying, sitting on our bed, I tell her I need her to love me. She says others can love me better than she can. Ta Da. This happened at least every other month.

We hung in there a long time, me making things work and her thinking it was working. I created my problem. I knew that in time I would be unfaithful to her, living in the same house with her, so I decided to remove myself and start over.

I know what I want from a woman. Partnership. Someone who will cherish me. Someone who, when I try and explain how I listen to God, doesn't look at me like I have a horn growing out of my head.

This blog is not about finding that woman. I have found her. The person I have found is amazing. The next step is to slow down and enjoy it.

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